Deleted my last post.
On a re-hiatus, bye.
I hate last minute changes.
Okay, everything is a mess. Was a mess. Is a mess. I shall pre-occupy with homework, so I won't think of anything else. Meanwhile, I'm MIA-ing for awhile. Unless you know the toher URL, which you don't- Goodbye.
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive. Press the blade to your skin, & watch the blood flow.
Funny how things work out, one's screwed, the other's getting better. Got past the heats for Discus. The shotputs were gross, cause the field was really wet and muddy. Just like last year. Lost & found my entire worksheets and all in math class. Panicked like crazy for a moment due to the fact that all my work was there. Basically, a typical boring day.
The best part is, goodbye.
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Either I'm too stressed or I'm just super pissed off with whatever is going on right now. I've been starting to snap at people. My bad.
School is (Insert something here). Because (Insert explanation). Basically I'm pissed off & it's not good. Somebody give me a punch bag before my knuckles get raw.
Don't act upon your insercurities as if you are 5, trying to get all our attention. Grow up, get a life. Everytime I see you now it's just utter disgust. You said you were trying, you lied. You didn't try, you never tried. & now you blame it on insercurities? You think I'd believe you? Not anymore. You've had one too many chances. Don't come and tell me you tried. This heart, is no longer open.
Screw this, I'll just cut myself out of your life forever.
& I think you should know this.
Cheers to being FIENDS.
Sunday, March 25, 2007
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oz88S7Z1gF8
Check that baby out. :D Okay fine, Oliver James isn't that hot. But he's adorableeeeeeeee, (: Anyway, after I found out Wentworth's actual age and re-watched the PB episodes, I realised, HE HAS WRINKLES. Look closer people, he actually has wrinkles. Whoa, that's sad. But he's still handsommmmme.
On a less actor-crazed mode, I have actually done all my work besides HeyMath. I did SOME HeyMath.
Okay, I shall stop digressing. My left heel has a tiny tiny blister, because I had heels on today & we did walk around a bit. The strap was rubbing against my ankle & it was painful. Walking around in heels for 7hours isn't exactly FUN. All hail those who can use 6" and walk for that long. Hahah!
Class today was good, cell is postponed till tomorrow. Class shouldn't end so late! I got 1 out of 2 shirts I lent during camp back today. Pan! My shirt & my pen! OH OH, & THAT HAIR TIE I LENT TO YOU BACK IN PRI SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!! Hahahaha, ass.
I'm estatic to see the Babra Walters interview with Terri Irwin, cause Steve was the only wildlife guy who really got to me. I miss Steve, ): Steve, the wildlife earth angel, (: Okay, I'm sidetracking AGAIN. So uh, bye.
Friday, March 23, 2007
Lit on stage! I was the prop, haha! All I did was to hold up the seaweed like stuff and to signify the odour of the Arabian Perfume, which is supposed to smell bad? The wavy thing was green and long and it was on top of the giant hand I was hiding behind. The performances were super funny & exciting. :D 4A had the best witches! They had green body paint all over their arms and face, their hair was gray & really big and creepy! It was seriously scary cause the paint started cracking after it dried & they looked like REAL WITCHES. & after that they took damn long to wash the paint off.
During our run, Charlene, Clarice & I couldn't stop laughing! It was hilarious. We just laughed and laughed and laughed through out. After that, went to Tiong & finally got my my STUDENT'S MEAL TREAT, :DD I shall treat that nerd one day, casue she's super nice. Haha! :D The Macs guy was damn embarrassing & we were both like uh, uh, uh! Then I went to Redhill & waited for Pan. & then we met Sa at Outram! So coincidental! Haha, fated. After tuition we went to Riverside for dinner & then they fetched me home. Tomorrow, HOMEWORK.-Chinese [Worksheet +tuition]-Math [Heymath]-English [Composition]-Biology [Practical]
I hope I didn't miss anything out! My report book is, good. Sounds nice, haha!
"Marianne establishes friendship bonds with the community regardless of race, religion or social background. She is also willing to put more effort in improving her academic performance."
I need motivation to study.
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Isabelle aka Codybelle!
We love the POLE! :D
Harbour Front, long long ago!
I need to do Heymath. Any one care for extra online practice? I'll lend you my account! :D F-O-C(Free Of Charge) okay! No GST, no service charge, nothing. Today is a boring day, seriously. I've been getting anoyed easily, the big M word we all dread is coming! So alert, do not give me any shit, cause this week I'll get back at you when you least expect it.
I seriusly feel like ranting on & on... But I shall stop before this gets uuuuugggggglllyyyyyyyy! (Breathes in, out, in, out...Goes back to breathing normally.) Okay, I've cooled off. I need to start a mantra & chant L-O-V-E until I stop being this angsty.
Leaving you with this. Love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love OLIVER JAMES. Hahaha!
"If I'm selfish, you're the doofus who buys the fish from me."
& BUY ALL OUR TICKETS IF YOU'RE SO GENEROUS.
Okay, random rant, I'm just letting off some steam. Sorry if I've offended you, but uh, I was offended. So TAKE CARE. Aha. (:
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Random pictures!
I feel detached from the internet world. I feel like I've been recklessly spending my time slacking. I should start studying more & stop procrastinating! Anyway, my current L1R5 is 16. I should have read those freaking questions correctly, ): No point brooding over it. Heroes is on later!!!!!!!Okay, back to life away from the computer. Bye!
Sunday, March 18, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PATRICK STARRRRRRRRRRRRRR! :D
Proof that he's REALLY Patrick Star.
This was terrible mannn! Blackmail.
I will get my revenge ONE DAY!
I guess I'll see all you people withint the next two days, HAVE A GOOD DAY'S REST! :D & Happy Sunday ya'll.
Saturday, March 17, 2007
Had tuition yesterday with Pan & Chen. After that, went to Vivo & watched them have dinner, then we went to Candy Empire & I got ther Nerds Rope, which was daaaaaamn colourful. Haha! Bus-ed down to church with mat for P&W. We were like half an hour late? But a handful were still downstairs, so it was okay. Went up & the OHP broke down! So we had to sing from memory. After praise hung around a little, made some calls & went off. Codybelle has the funniest accent in the world, I swear. Hahah!
Tuition later with Pan. I want to watch tonight's moooooooovie, what a girl wants. It looks interesting & Oliver James is HOT. :D
Take this feeling & make it last.
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Group discussions!
This was before the camp officially started.
Camp officially starts, briefing of our first game.
First game, in St Jude rectangle! Hilarious.
Reflections (:
Distraction!
I don't know what I was looking at.
Sabo-ing someone?
Briefing before games, Group 3 & 4.
Groups 1 & 2 plus a few people from 3 & 4.
The last supper dinner.
On the bus back to church.
I am tired, I am burnt, I am tired, I am tired. & I just blew $40+ today. I am broke, I am burnt, I am broke. Donations are always welcome. Aha! :D Escape was fun, the viking ship was super funny & I sat on my FIRST go-kart ride. (: I like the rainbow & pepsi things the best. I didn't get to sit the log flume though! ): I still can't believe I bought two hotdogs, one drink, Berry Nice Smoothie($7.50!! Freaks.) and lozengesssssss. Plus cab fare back. Oh and bottled water. I have never spent my money that ridiculously in my life, ever. Which reminds me, I need to top up my card. Goodnight! :D
Cause I'm looking at your photograph, don't know how much time has passed. Oh god it feels like forever & no one ever knows that. We all think we're great & when we see someone down, we always fail to stay & help.
A mililon love songs later, here I am.
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
This is my December,
This is my snow covered home.
This is my December,
This is me alone.
And I just wish that i didnt feel like there was something i missed
And I take back all the things i said to make you feel like that
And I just wish that i didnt feel like there was something i missed
And I take back all the things i said to you
And I'd give it all away,
Just to have somewhere to go to.
Give it all away,
To have someone to come home to.
This is my December,
These are my snow covered trees.
This is me pretending,
This is all i need.
Puppetation, the silent tick. Your sinister smile in which I fell into a trance. You said follow, so I followed. Then all of a sudden, silence, no more commands, no more promptings. But I still continue to follow that sinister smile. You and your smile, they take my breath away. I am nothing but a follower, I have lost hope in the quest for the lead. I don't know if I'm being led on or if I'm just following. I'm starting to approach with caution, with apprehension. Do you feel that cold tingling? The sensation which is starting to become clearer? I'm going to shoot you. I'm going to make you pay. I will set myslf free.
Once so close, now lost.
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
"I've had my heart broken, and it's not fun. But I'd rather have my heart
broken than break someone else's heart."
"Making people laugh is hard, especially for someone who is not
happy."
"I didn't want to get sucked up in the madness. Flitting around from club
to club and girl to girl is no way to live."
-Joshua Daniel Harnett, 28.
Applicable? Today is mundane, tuition in two hours. I better start getting ready, poof & I'm off.
Monday, March 12, 2007
Camp was gooooooood. :D
Day1:
I was fetched to church at 0930 and waited for everyone to come. The bus only came at 1115 to pick us up. There were super little people in the gigantic bus? Haha. When we first reached IHM we were like, whoa, nice place. But after we saw the toilets we immediately missed STC man. Haha, the toilets were gross. Placed our bags upstairs and then went to the session room to play games. They taped four boxes in the room and each had a different name. & when you stood in the box you had to do a certain action. We got into our groups after that & then... THE REST OF THEM CAME! Together with the parents who brought our lunch. Haha! We played the linking hands game. Group 1&3 parterned while group 2&4 partered after the practice round. So my group was super tangled & after we untangeled ourselves, we realised we made two LINKING circles. Haha! That was funny. The second circle had 3 people & they were just like, funny. Haha. Had lunch, then this guy called Jonathan Pillai came & shared with us his lifestory. He was funny. & then we had a debate on who is god. Had another session in which we became superheros. I was VEGGIEGIRL :D Haha! I didn't get constipation & I could control veggies. My weakness was I have a thing for green, hahaha! My group, Ivan was HAIRYBOY, Alvin was AHPEK, Germaine was GADGETGIRL, Mathias was LOUDMOUTH & Deborad was ZOOGIRL. Quite wierd huh! Haha. Then we had dinner & we couldn't stop laughing because of hairyboy. He kept using his powers & shooting hair from his armpits at us. Gross! That night we had confession & it was super sad plus touching. Slept at 0130 after a looooooong long talk about the PS, the football club. Don't ask. :D
Day2:
Woke up at 6+ because I couldn't sleep, which sucked. Went down for breakfast & had a good laugh. Played games & got flour all over me. Haha! Had a good lunch & then had prayers & reflections & silence. Then it was mass. Dinner with the parents and we had a game during dinner, no prize la. Cheat our feelings only. Haha! Prayover at night, suuuuuuuuper sad. & the worst part was that many people had to leave. Stayed up till 3am and went to sleep.
Day3:
Woke up, woke everyone up and had breakfast. Cleaned the place up and we left for church.
Summarized summary of the camp. :D Very summarised already okay! It's considered short.
The greatest and most common amongst all, yet the most complex, the hardest to understand, love.
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Okay, goodbye world, I'm off for camp.
Chao.
Friday, March 09, 2007
Confirmation camp TOMORROW. Oh my god, it's so fast. It's really really fast. I don't want this to come. I don't want confirmation. I don't want O levels to come! Not this fast, I still feel 14. Really, I do. Ruffles is good, ruffles if good, ruffles is good...(Chants.)
Today was a realy sweeeet ending to the three days. It was really squrimish hearing people saying Francis's voice is sexy, most probably cause I've known him for a long time. So I was kinda like weird-ed out? Kinda. Okay, I'm using improper english. I would like to thank those who gave me those little notes, I love you all & those who I gave the notes to, you guys are the real special ones. Maybe cause we all went through all that turmoil back in lower secondary? The shit that the world gave us. & the rebellion, like a ship rising from the deep waters.
Today someone told me you're strong. You know who you are & uh, it kinda made me feel better? (: Cause I felt like I wasn't able to handle things well & yeah... Oh well. On a lighter note, women in army aren't allowed to have hair that's too short. Funny. I've always thought that they would have short hair.
You're Wyrd, fate personified.
Thursday, March 08, 2007
Well, I'm sitting alone thinking about it all over coffee.
And still crowdin' my space are the things you still hold against me.
You cannot save me.
Well, it's not the time to breakdown.
It's not the time to breakdown.
It's not the time to break up this love,
Keep it together now.
It's not the time to break.
Today was really depressing. Seriously depressing. During the session I was thinking about what happened before & all the shitty thing that happened to a certain person. & I teared, cause I knew I wasn't there & I just left you alone. I just left you alone. & it kinda sucked & it hurt to see how other people share their experiences & see their hurt, so raw, even after so many years. Till now I still don't know how you felt. I only remember you telling me it's nothing, I'm okay. But you know- We both know you weren't. I saw it in your face when someone asked, you were just blank. You didn't know what to say & I couldn't help much either. Today I just sat at the table & listened to all her problems & what they said. & I just couldn't bring myself to say anything.Tomorrow better not be about friends or else I'll just bawl.Everyone has problems, nobody is perfect.
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
I went to school at 6am. S-I-X A-M.
Just to see people off? ): Dammit, & I didn't say hi.
So um, I guess have a good trip. You people should have reached there by now, & I hope you all are having a blast. Take care.
EFL was great, awesome, amazing even? I laughed so hard I nearly fell asleep later due to how tiring laughing actually is. Laughed and laughed even more later. You know, funny is good, but too much funny & I can't seem to remember a thing. Please remind me to bring glue, scissors & markers tomorrow.
Heroes is on later! :D I liiiike the show. I think AI(Guys) is yawn, yawn, boring. They're just not as good as the girls. But uh, go Blake & Phil! Heehee. I've already got my favourites.
Went to town after EFL & took neoprints with Atheena, Angie, Marcella & Marissa. I think bumping into people you once knew is like, wierd feeling. Especially when they stare at you with the "Do I know you?" face. Or just stare because they are or were from your school. I'm going to miss EFL when graduation comes & goes.
What goes around... Comes around. It's called karma, retribution. & in christianity, they say- What you do unto others shall be done unto you.
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
Hello world. I am glad there's EFL in my school. Cause we get to not have lessons for three entire days. :D BEAT THAT, suckers. Hahaha!
We didn't get back any papers today, which means we have to wait until next week, as the teachers are like going away to Taman & some other wierd place in Johor? I wanna go back to Dairy Farm with the exact same people & instructors & I wanna go with them plus the Taman instuctors. OH OH. & OBS too. Camp fever, I'm not having any EFL camp this year, ): But there's Confirmation camp this weekend. Which means more time with god & churchies. The god part is still a little far-fetched. But by the time it's over I guess I'd turn out a better person. I envy the sec1-3s! ): Nevermind. I'll just go WWW & have funnnnnn next week. :D On my only free day man. I've got EXTRA MATH CLASS on that day! How shitty, ): But nevermind, I won't see home the whole day. That's good. Okay, goodbye all the Sec2&3s. Have a safe trip. :D
& bring back all the memories & S-T-U-F-F.
Heeheehee, byeeeeeeee!
Monday, March 05, 2007
From the other day! PAN.
If everyone cared this world would be a better place.
Do you concur? I concur.
Amen, I'm alive.
I'm happy with my Phy/Chem. Actually estatic about it. & Emath isn't that bad after all. Amath was the one that really dragged me down. More reveals tomorrow. Till then, goodbye.
Sunday, March 04, 2007
I am ADDICTED to Lakerol. & I finished about two packets today. About. But a ate a bit of it on Friday. So uh, I ate alot of laxatives today? Hahaha! I ate tasty laxatives. :D I hope I don't get diarrohea.
Today was a Z-day! But class was interesting. Yeah, interesting. The lying down part, I just couldn't stop laughing. Heehee. Went to SAFRA & played at the arcade & I got the high score! :D first place, MJH. Hahaha! Sam was 4th place & 9th in the other game. Then we went over to Crescent to have Cheeeeken Riiiiiise. Hahahha. Sadly, we didn't go bowling & see lovey dovey couples(Hinthint Sam). Inside joke. :D & no it's not about Sam. It's about Fats & Bomb hair. You wouldn't know.
Violence is criminal logic. & you're scaring me.
Saturday, March 03, 2007
I smell like the fragrences of many different anti-prespirants? Haha. It a nice smell, but it's comes out in like a powder thing & it's damn wierddddd. It's like powder. It comes out like this white spray stuff & ends off as powder. It's partially washed off but still can smell it! Like very slight smell.
Went to town today & then tuition. I think Saturdays are good for going out. & my pridiction for tomorrow is that we will keep our voices down!! Haha.It felt right, Merlin help her. It felt… almost preordained, somehow.
Tomorrow's church. & blogging twice a day isn't cool. So uh, bye? (:
My blog's turning 2 in May! :D
“Tell me your convoluted stories through
Your half-rotten mouth
I will decipher them to tell the world of your heart-
How beautiful things can come from the dark.”
Everything will be okay, we will meet again one day.
Tuition latttttterrrrrrrrr. CA's over, I know. But tution's forever & ever & ever. How beautful things can come from the dark(click!). My new obession! :D K, out then tuition. TUIIIIIITION. Note to self, BRING MATH STUFF. I always forget.
So they had slit her wrist then. It seemed rather… uncivilized to his way of thinking, slicing her up and just leaving her to drain out dirty blood all over the place. Careless too since if she ever managed to calm herself down a good shout or two was probably all it would take to summon an Auror to her side. The only possible explanation was that they hadn’t wanted her dead after.
How crude.
Friday, March 02, 2007
A liquid in wihch something is steeped
The water is more than deep, more than cold, more than anything you've imagined it to be. Water is the basis of your fear, it smothers fire without a curtsey. Say goodbye, be sincere, it may just be the last night you are here.
School was cool! :D Really great + funny day today. Started off with the Geog paper, which turned out okay? I think it'll be a borderline. then it was SS & Mdm Zu sewed Bhagat & Angie's belts. Amusing(x23487623847236)! It was so funny I teared while laughing my ass off, seriously laughing my ass off. Bhagat was livid, seriously livid & Mdm Zu was like "Take your pinafore off, yes, take it off, you think I bluffing ar?" After an entire dose of gaseous laughter, we had chineeeeese. Did the compo thing & it was tiring, I wrote something about a lost O level results slip & it as found under the cupboard a few days later. It's supposed to be comflict within the family, go figure. During recess we talked about jokes! :D & Bhagat didn't get Marissa's 'first' joke, so after Marissa said the second joke Bhagat RAISED her hand & shouted I KNOW, I KNOW! MWAHCHEEEE! & everyone around just starred at us while we all burst out in laughter. Okay, inside joke, damn funny. (: After recess was BIOLOGY. Oh my gosh. Most interesting lesson in the entire history of lessons in my life. Animal Reproduction! Then all the gross penis/vagina stuff. But all in all, interesting! :D Class family time was spent looking at the acsb yearbook. & Marmar + Bhagat said that _ was hot. WHOA WHOA. Like so wierd? It was squermish wierd.
After school, sat with Sam & Rachel in the canteen. Played with Rachel's camera! It's super funny! (: I think it's super cool & the face distortion thing is just hilarious! Reminds me of Aaron Carter's myspace.com pictures! House practice. Sam, Crystal, Rebecca, Louisa & I talked about the juicy gossip and stories of the school. I still can't believe a video exists! Wowwwwwwww. If they knew the exact source, they'd die. It's soooooooo funny. I'll tell you if you ask. & you'd just freak.
Goooooooooooooooooooooooodbye.
Thursday, March 01, 2007
I've been freezing today. It's so dammed cold & it rained almost the whole day. See la, the Rain movie coming then it rains like crazy, blame it all on rain. Okay, I failed Ss by 1mark, but I had the points! I had the damn points but the linking wasn't there, so I only got 4 for the second question & that was the one I really knew about, shit. :/ So I guess Lit better come out good. Today I lost marks due to careless reading. I swear, EM&Bio- Something like this always happend & costs me my marks. Like EM I forgot to put the scale factor & Bio I read the question wrongly. Depressing. Tomorrow's Geography & it's gonna be haaaaaarrrd. ):
Today, I really missed a past really-really-great friend. I know I can't turn back time, but yeah. I just missed it for a really long awhile today. I was talking to a friend & suddenly it popped into my head. That hey, I missed that friendship alot. Tomorrow, I'm going to talk to someone else whom I haven't been speaking to in awhile too & yeah. Just talk.
When you see it all go away.
